keep ignoring this

I'm just bored.

Could this shitfest of adoptables and 'exclusive species' please stop ?

My inbox is full of creatures created by others adopted by their friends, and thats all cool but its turning into a popularity contest. Bandwagon much ?
not to mention journals and polls but that finally calmed down.

also I dont get the deal, if a species is yours nobody else should wag around and go create one anyway without your permission anyway. A friend of mine is right , if you add 'exlusive' or 'rare' to something ppl are automatically going to WANT one and if your popular you might call it crowd control buuuut , good luck with that one.

Thers just one exclusion because apparently everyone really wants to have one of her dragons, what is downright annoying for her. I don't think I'v seen so many ppl jump on a dragon species before that wasn't official.
Is it so hard to make your own species ? To make something you have total control of yeez.

anyway, call me stupid or emotionless but I'm not interested in 'adopting' a creature from another artist unless it was specifically GIVEN to me. Sure I tried some petsites, but just like forums I give up on them, I'd rather be living my life, creating my world and drawing.
Why am I bothered by this ? well I'm not really bothered, I am just concerned. I'll tell you a lil story.

many years ago when I was 16 me and my best pally wrote a story, we merged our characters into a world they could bolth explore and venture on. While this was all great fun and a nice [choughLOL] story, by then end things weren't done. My head kept living in THAT world ,not mine, and her characters where overtaking mine with brutal force. hence I must have spend 2 years wasting on that world we bolth created. trying to get my own muses back. What turned to be a pain in the ass, but at least a successful one even if I took a whole way around it [lol fantasy world anyone ? ].

I don't want this happening anymore. That is why I don't want to 'adopt' creatures and characters that aren't truly mine, or at least I keep weary and careful about it.

Aw shit ... another long day, groceries, cleaning ... and other stuff I can't remember, but it sure wasn't drawing.

so went to other doc for final result, result was ' lol you have no male hormones!'
okay ... so I have hairy arms and a sexline for free ?
eh I probbable had those when I was born, then lost them ages 1 to 3 , all the rest is pure psychology, not gonne bug you with that.

and ofcourse the usually 'zomg you hormones are out of the wack' and the less usual ' hey your body is attaching yourself and your thiroyde is filled with hate and ager, what I totally understand cuz you dad is an asshole'
yeeeh that might explain that sun allergy I thought I have. okay , starting treatment next week. As for the last part, I know that. Don't start about any of it I'll just start crying and never fucking stop. My urge to pull it out is high, but to be honest, thats not going to solve any of this shit isn't it.

SINCE THIS IS STILL SOME SORDA ART BLOG
here have some soda, as for the lineart, I was drunk.

you 21 ppls voting YES, yes you guys, you own me 70 bucks for a new scanner D:


ho well, I guess I'll just really have to try to buy nothing at all for the next 3 weeks, atleast this should get me posting my shit again. And get rid of my paranoia of scanning right in my parents faces.
And using PS, lol, I got LOADS of brushes and I love using them and textures, so I actually spend allot of time installing them. Actually I'm working with them right now, it looks like scrapbooking, awesomesause.


anywayz enough blahblah, hers pretty much 96% of whats in my sketchbooks of 09, its not allot, its actually darn poor.
And I got a headache so LOL. art hates me and loves to bombard mez with teh headaches.
or its just the heat *chough* probably *chough*

time owt

I dunno what it is today but I can't get moving. I can't get myself to draw stuff, whats pretty disturbing, yet far from the first time. I don't want to update cuz its just a very few thingies, and to be honost I don't have any photos from the zoo I really dig, so I doubd you'll get to see much. After a while all the animals where just in their shelter, bad weather does that.

ugh, I'v just been sleeping all day, mebe things will be better tomorrow. I got my watercolors ready to be used.

and I need to refine 2 new species into 1, but I doubt that this is possible ... actually by writing this I just made out that that is gonne be impossible, I'll just keep em bolth .

I like a clean dig, SOOOOO lets see if I can keep this up. I guess I won't be posting much personal info here, but atleast I am not plagued by a loadingtime of 15 minutes per page.

to start where I left

static pose is static, but getting the outfit was totally worth it <3

initiatif testing

jadda , I'll fix my scanner eventually, and then I can scan again >.>